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The Blogdex found me recently. I'm don't know how. Almost all the links I found listed there are internal, and from an arbitrary block of pages. Strange. It's not like I repeatedly link the A-list. I find their sites almost universally uninteresting, though I do enjoy the work some of them do. Other things, I just don't get. Like the Blogdex.

Sure, there's a nice sort of mission statement blathering something about democratic media and masses and that sort of thing, but everyone knows what it really is: What stupid link is making the rounds today? I hardly think that Alkulukuja Paskova Karhu, the Prime Number-Shitting Bear constitutes "democratic media." Now, the Turner Broadcasting System...

More importantly, though, the Blogdex will become: Who cares what we're talking about, how popular am I? How many people have linked me? It took five HREFs to claw my way halfway up a list of 14thousand. This is a pretty sad popularity contest. But I'm right where I belong. I want to be on the B-List. Real success entails little responsibilities I want little to do with. I'd thought at one time it might be amusing to try and get myself linked left and right or some junk, then said, "Meh." While it's not as glamorous, profitable or maybe even fun, mediocrity is a much more challenging aspiration.